User Profile

I'm a sister.
I'm a psyche major.
I have no clue what I want to do with that degree.
I complain a lot.
I'm not really as depressed as my journal makes me out to be.
I just get emo at times.
I'm no longer a long haired blonde.
I'm a conservative and I bet you'll have stereotypes about me.
I'm a Christian.
I'm betting now you're thinking I'm narrow-minded and don't have fun.
I don't like pointless conversation about things that really don't matter.
I don't like mystery or complexity.
I'm pretty complex...
I don't like drama.
I don't like creating drama.
I don't particularly like talking.
I like listening though.
I'm lonely at school.
I don't feel like I fit in.
I'm pretty neurotic and eccentric... or so I've been told.
I don't like not seeing people as people.
I don't really like people though... as in large groups
I much rather prefer simplicity, straightforwardness, and intellect.
I'd rather people tell it like it is, have respect, and love each other.
I'd rather there be a bit of understanding in this world.
I'd rather there be grace over tolerance.
I cling to hope.
I have dysfunctional relationships.
I lose friends fast.
It's not intentional.
I look forward to the more distant future as oppose to tomorrow

















I use my Live Journal to rant and rave about things I don't usually have anyone to rant and rave to. I'm not the type of person that easily opens up and I have a hard time dumping all my issues on those around me in the real world. I hide behind a mask that lies to the world, telling the people I see that I don't need their help and that I'm capable on my own. The reality is I'm not. I don't have everything altogether. I do sometimes, but there are times when everything falls out of my hands and there's no one to help put the pieces together. Its very hard having few friends, even harder when you know that the reason you're not close to anyone is because you push them all away. I wish I could stop, I really want to be a fun loving, easy going, happy go lucky girl... everyone loves those types; but unfortunately I get nervous, I mumble, and I see the negatives in everything.